I woke up grumpy this morning. It's something that happens, I'm not good in the morning. I did feel for C a bit as he was already awake, on the Ipad and quite upbeat when the morning monster rose from the depths and moaned randomly about the pile of ironing left at the end of the bed the previous day. What can I say; it's not rational behaviour!
I took myself off for a long speed walk, ipod plugged in, to walk off the grumps, and returned to find C up, dressed and about to go for the paper - he's been much better today, less tearful and starting to want to just get on with this damn business and get better. He had a small upset when we were talking about No 1 son and his recent engagement, but that passed and he was 'up and at 'em' once again.
Bren and Gem came round, with Archie (their dog) in tow - Gem couldn't stop smiling and seems so happy about it, it's a lovely thing to see and we can't wait for the preparations to start. Bren bought her a lovely ring, clever boy he does have taste, which she apparently hasn't taken off since he proposed!!
We had the call from the hospital telling us that the MRI scan is tomorrow at 11.45am - given his fear of enclosed spaces Mr O had prescribed him Diazepam to take before the scan; C's relief at this was soon replaced with frustration as the prescription was full price but he only got the one tablet!!!!! He needs to take it an hour before the scan, so by the time I get him to the hospital he should be nicely chilled...and hopefully not comatose as I'm not sure I could carry him....
He's started to prepare for the fact that he may have to go into hospital and is writing lists of things I may need to know - starting with passwords to various accounts etc in case I have to access them when he can't. I'm wondering if this includes his bank account and/or savings account, which may inexplicably be slightly lighter by the time he comes out...He's also had his posh watch checked (he thought it wasn't working but apparently is and the hand he thought was the broken second hand is, in fact, the stopwatch hand), and we had lunch out - small world that this is, the place we ate is run by an ex boss of mine that I haven't seen in years; add to that that I went into New Look with Rom and saw another mate from years ago and the whole world seems to be shrinking.......so maybe it's not caving in at all, it's just got a bit smaller?
The weather today has been amazing; blue sky, hot sunshine, enough breeze to make it bearable - one of those summer days that are so beautiful in this country and make you forget the rain. The garden is however starting to look rather dry and crispy, although the bee population, and that of butterflies, is active and busy and a delight to watch. It will be interesting to see which poor parched plants make it to the autumn...
As it's been so nice, and we're all feeling more positive and active, we're going down to the beach hut tonight - high tide is at 5pm so a swim is on the cards, plus barbecue and drinkies (for me and Rom - C's off that). No 2 son is coming as well, having read Rom's post on FB and wanting to join in...I've despatched him to get his swimmers, towel and some nice cold beer...and who said having kids was hard work??? They do come in handy.
I'm counting today as D Day + 4, but it feels different - we've packed up despair and fear for a minute and are enjoying life; is this because after Thursday we'll really know what we're facing? I don't know, but this 'one day at a time' plan is bloody marvellous right now and I'm sticking to it for all I'm worth.
So I'm off to dip in the briny, cook outdoors, drink nice wine and watch the boats going in and out of Bembridge Harbour. A perfect end to a lovely day, and one to be remembered.
Loads of love for tomorrow x x
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Karen. XxX
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