Weird day today; following yesterday's adrenaline run re the scan, today we have been pacing, sitting, looking at each other and trying to pass the time until our appointment with Mr O tomorrow afternoon - this is probably unwise as time really is precious, especially at the moment (another quip, ooh get me, they just roll out!) so another plan was needed to occupy at least some bits of the day.
Surprisingly I was up first this morning - mainly, I should add, due to C snoring contentedly and very loudly. Now normally this would invoke me to deliver a sharp dig in the back/ribs/arm/whatever part of his body is nearest to me, but our current situation has managed to conjure up a patience in me that I didn't know I had, so I quietly got up, got dressed and went for a long speed walk. By the time I got back C was awake so I took tea up to bed and we spent half an hour lounging around - this is something I am going to struggle with next week, not having this time in the mornings to just be around C and plan our day. Hey ho....
We had a lateish breakfast and said goodbye to Romilly - she's working in Cowes for the next couple of day, then I rang C's ex-boss and long term friend, John, to let him know our news. I hadn't realised how hard it would be repeating the news to someone different, and when John wavered slightly in what he was saying towards the end I nearly lost it. This is something I am going to have to work on big time if I'm going to be any use at all in the coming months.
It's funny how the little things somehow become poignant - have I said this yet? But somehow going to Tesco and doing the shopping is now something to share and enjoy (choosing things to eat and drink we haven't seen or had in ages; splashing out on Bombay Sapphire gin, a newly acquired habit of mine from France which may prove to be a huge source of comfort...or at least just an enjoyable drink!). We bought stuff for lunch, splashing out on a huge pot of mixed olives, feta and sun dried tomatoes, heavenly. Getting to the checkout was a bit of a shock - it was only supposed to be a mini shop, but we still managed rack up over £100!!!! Thank goodness for Clubcard vouchers......
Bit of a problem with Broadband this afternoon, which resulted in C swearing profusely and using the 'c' word, which he NEVER, does and I got quite cross with him - it's the first time I've told him to 'get a grip' so far but it was so daft, considering what he's going to have to get to grips with soon...perspective, where art thou???
We took the dogs out for a short run - still not sure how much energy C can expend on exercise, but a half hour walk in the breeze up on Culver went well and he seems okay so far; just having a quick snacky tea and we've decided to go to the cinema tonight, something we haven't done for ages.
And that's another day filled and almost over; we're split on how to feel about tomorrow - I want to see Mr O and find out what the 'damage' is so we can plan what's ahead; C wants to exist in blissful ignorance in the belief that if he doesn't know it's not going to happen....oh what a role reversal that one is! Never thought he'd be the one in La La Land while my feet are firmly stuck on terra firma. But then I guess that's what life is going to be like for us...constant surprises of one kind or another and a persistent feeling of not knowing one's a*se from one's elbow......
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